My hearts desire..

I have had alot on my mind the past few months..

For one : I have been praying that God would bless us with another child for years. I was so happy when we decided to start trying again!! We started trying in August and then I had a miscarriage in September at almost 7 wks. I was so upset but knew that there was a reason and I need to trust in the Lord.
So ... we waited the recommended time for my body to heal and we started trying again. We tried in Decemeber and it didn't happen.We tried again in January and we are now waiting to see.. I went to the Dr. this week because I am concerned about the pain I am having while I have my period. It has been horrible and not normal for me at all. They did a exam and pap smear and I am sceduled to have a u/s on the 23rd of this month to check for cysts, fibroids or possible endometriosis.He prescribed some pain medication for me to take if I end up NOT pregnant this month. I am concerned that this is possibly the reason for my miscarriage and not conceiving. I usually have no problem getting pregnant.. we always were successful the 1st month of trying. So I am very concerned and trying to trust in the Lord.

The other thing on my heart right now is that I want to quit my job and stay at home with the kids and homeschool them. Bryan doesn't see how that is possible.. I am praying that the Lord will make a way for me to stay home and homeschool if thats His plan. In the mean time I think I will try to make a budget on just Bryan's income and see where we are at. I understand we would probably have to give up quite a few things .. Bryan just keeps reminding me that we would NEVER be able to visit my family on the Cape or go on a vacation or be able to get a new (to us) vehicle, or fix anything around the house ect. I guess if this is what God wants me to do then He will make a way of it to happen.

Wow.. I feel much better now that I wrote this all out!

Wow.. its been quite awhile since I wrote last! Things here have been very busy..

Let's see since the last post.. my parents came for a quick visit on New Year's Eve before they drove down to Florida for a few months. It was nice to see them, since we couldn't go back home for Christmas due to my van being so unreliable. They brought gifts for the kids.. and we had a great time.
I celebrated my 36th birthday last week.. how time flies! How can I be that old already? Bryan invited a few people over to have pizza and cake to celebrate. It was nice..
My sister Sarah was here over the weekend to visit. I am so happy that they could come up, I miss my family so much!! We had a wonderful time visiting and the cousins got to play together.

We are battling sickness again.. Emalee has had a fever now for 3 days. Not sure what is going on really, she doesn't have any other symptoms. I am not sure it is worth a Dr. call yet. I will watch her and see what happens.

Christmas..

Boy its been crazy around here the past few weeks!! We have had Nana in the hospital (twice).. 1st time she was having internal bleeding and the 2nd time was because she develpoed a staph infection from the 1st visit! I am happy to report that she is scheduled to return home today! YAY!
Then 2 days before Christmas Mama decided to fall and spend the night at the hospital. Thank the Lord she didn't break anything, but she is in alot of pain and bruised up quite a bit. So we have had a very stressful Christmas season.. and we are happy that it they are still here with us! We love the grandmothers sooo much!

Then there was CHRSTMAS! We have a Christmas Eve service every year at our church with the kids being in a "living nativity".. that was cute and exhausing!!
Then on Christmas Eve I still had to prepare the omlettes for the morning and make the coffee cake and wrap more gifts.. lets just say it was a very, very, long night!!

The truth is .. I wouldn't trade the craziness and the over excited children ANYDAY! I love the way they get soo excited and I am so blessed to have such a wonderful family. My wonderful husband who loves me and works so hard to provide for us.. and my 4 children who I love more than words can describe.. they are amazing!!

Now we are cleaning up from Christmas and preparing for the New year.. 2010!

Your Favorites (170 photos), by rebecca gantt

I'd like to share my Snapfish photos with you. Once you have checked out my photos you can order prints and upload your own photos to share.
Click here to view photos

Thought I would share some of my photos.. ENJOY!

My Birthday Boy!!

Tomorrow will be my son Gabriel's 14th birthday.. How does time go by so fast?

Seems like yesterday that he was stubborn and wouldn't come out.. he was almost 2 weeks late! I remember the night I had him - I was induced and was in labor for over 12 hours.. it was snowing and everyone I loved was there to welcome him into this world. He was so cute and I was so happy that he was finally here!
I can still see him running around in his coveralls and flannel shirts.. trying to walk in his Daddy's boots and carrying around his Toy Story "Woody" (he never went anywhere without it.. and yes he still has it)
I can't believe that he is going to be 14! He is such a sweet and sensitive boy that still "loves" on his Momma. I pray that he contiues to strive to be a man of God and always put Him first.
I thank the Lord that he chose me to be his Mother.. I am so blessed.

I love you Gabriel Michael.. You make me so proud! ♥

Wisdom..

Well.. I finally had it done... my wisdom teeth are FINALLY gone!

It wasn't bad at all actually.. the pain hasn't been too bad. I have decided to stop taking the pain meds during the day since they make me so groggy and tired and just take them at bedtime if I need to. The only problem I have is the pain in my face...where my sinuses are (cheekbones) they hurt.. but no mouth pain.
I planned ahead the week before and put meals in the freezer and made lists ect. Bryan has done well considering.. LOL I planned it so the kids were off on Thanksgiving break from school so he only had 1 day to get them up and ready for school.


Bryan went and drove out to the land I talked about in the last post... BOY is it out there! I guess at parts of the road was barely wide enough to even get the car thru.. he never did make it to the cabin. It would be too much to make the road wider and during mud season or a snow storm we would be trapped for weeks! LOL
I think that I got the "bug " in him now though... I am still checking out land for sale. Someday Lord willing .. I will have my little farm in the country..

Dreams..

I can't help it.. seems all I dream about lately is living in the country on a big piece of land with my family.. I mentioned it to my husband that I want to live in the country and have a small family farm.

He has found a ad in the paper for some land (33 acres) about 30 minutes from town with a small cabin on it. It has fruit trees and everything! I keep thinking about it... I think we are going out to do a "unoffical" drive by tomorrow.

I thought my husband would want nothing to do with living out in the middle of NOWHERE.. but he is the one who is talking about the possiblities NON stop! There is no electricity there on the land and they use solar and generator power, there is running water in the cabin and a wood stove. They heat the house by wood only. There is even a chicken coop! YAY!
The cabin only has 2 bedrooms and its very small...

What if.. What if.. thats all I can think about!!